Wet Blanket Update - Thanks!

Sigh. It is the nature of cancer and ADHD and even Asperger’s that I don’t notice things that would to other people be important. So what’s important to me about Today.com? That they pay me as contracted and as I argued in my Wet Blanket post? You’d  think so, because I argued, arguably eloquently, that my blog with it’s baby steps of biography qualified for payment.

Not so. Each time I log on here I look for comments. Did someone find me? Did someone find me interesting? This is what matters to me as I face the end of my life. I have no children, no common legacy. I have not published the great american anything. So I look for recognition, which to me is connection, in this life, and more specifically, in this blog.

I wrote on blogger with no responses other than a paranoid fellow from a site I used to haunt. Then two years later someone wrote: “everyone should read this.” That was the only comment. I still don’t know how to get found. Obviously I am not compelling enough to get featured. Who wants to read about cancer? Enough of that on the web.

So I look at the comments, not caring if I qualified for mere money.

BUT

Thank you! They paid me. At least the editors are paying attention and know that I am not publishing one hundred keywords a day. When I first joined here I saw quite a few articles like that. SO I am deluding myself into believing that at least I have the attention of editors who might otherwise be unwilling to read this. And my friend who thinks I am compelling but who hasn’t made a single comment. And you, surfing through the internet and stumbling over this site to read while you rub your sore spots.

Thank you in advance.