Trapped in a small town

"If somebody likes me, I want them to like the real me, not what they think I am. And I don't want them to carry it around inside. I want them to show me, so I can feel it, too. I want them to be able to do whatever they want around me."I've been helping my younger brother write a paper on Catcher in the Rye for the last few days, and suddenly it has become painfully clear that i relate to protagonists who are slightly alienated and confined to psychiatric wards. However on a less alarming note I found this quote from Perks of Being a Wallflower and is pretty much how I feel about people. I want ...

I'm not very good at gambling. Don't get me wrong I have come home with money everytime I've come home from a casino, but gambling just isn't a vice I care about.... vodka is another story. My problem is that I am never willing to risk a lot of money. If I'm up fifty bucks I'm more than content to walk away from the Black Jack table and watch the Steelers game at the bar while everyone else loses their paychecks. While this is great for sensibility (which I lack in most areas), I'm never going to be one of those people who comes home from Atlantic City with a few grand. I'm bad at gambling with ...

So where do I begin....I took a serving job, someone please find me and put me out of my misery. I don't completely hate the new serving job. It's rather easy, I work a lot, and my coworkers evidently find it hilarious that I tend to punch people in the face while I am intoxicated, HOWEVER I feel like an epic failure and am debating joining the peace corp. Unfortunately I'm sure the Peace Corp plan is a bad plan considering I hate people, have numerous vices that would only negatively impact developing countries, and quite frankly have no redeaming skills that could be utilized by the Peace Corp ...

There is an ongoing question in the air from all my friends that has become insufferable. "Why don't you just get another serving job?" Now I have worked in restaurants for the past 7 years, and this solution really isn't out of the realm of logic for anyone who knows me... HOWEVER I did not go to college for four years to go back to dealing with drunken losers who think $2 tips and their phone number will persuade me into getting within 10 ft of them after my shifts over. To be honest while I love making server jokes, I wont lie I made bank as a server in college. I easily made over 22 grand ...

After four years, a bachelors of Arts in Communications/Journalism, and graphic design certification.... I'm living with my parents in a small farming town where the dairy cows out number the human population. I currently have no job prospects, a dwindling number of freelance opportunities, foreboding student loan payments, and the depressing news that Jason Bay has officially signed with the New York Mets. I've been trying to find the silver lining in this unemployment business... and quite frankly apart from the fact that I have read a plethora of wikipedia article, which may some day result ...