How to Embrace Peace Now

If one was to step on a thorn and in fear of further pain decide to not stop immediately and take the thorn out, clean up the wound then allowing the foot to heal, there would be a definite ramification.It is very possible to adjust to pain convincing oneself that it is not that bad, yes it hurts but it will get better in time. In time it seems to get better but we all know it is not getting better but that we have simply adjusted to the pain. The pain has become normal in as any other habitual pattern we humans develop. Whether it is a “ good” or “bad one” we will more then ...

This makes no sense to me yet each time I read and re-read it clarity is somehow being formed. The more I read it the more sense it makes. Go figure. I do not know where these words came from or if they even will mean anything to anyone but I do know I must share it and for what reason I cannot even answer right now. So here it is. And so, where do you begin? Where do you go when you believe you have already been everywhere and nothing met up to the expectations? What do you do when the act of doing is either done without purpose, passion or a sense of accomplishment? It ...

The previous posts I have written were about a recent Cancer diagnosis I received. I also wrote about the fears, coping tools and the last Cancer Free prognosis after my surgery. Today is exactly two months after my surgery. Up until today I have shared and focused mainly on what I am convinced is the main reason for my miraculous recovery. Now I am going to share what I am also convinced was the main cause to begin with. This morning I awoke to the every day hustle and bustle of the majority of our lives. A seven year old wanting something, a list of things to do including laundry, ...

Imagine scanning your email and spotting a picture of something you have on your body with the words CANCER plastered across it. Immediately I visited the sources web site. I then blew up the picture and compared it to my neck finding it an exact match. I called the skin doctor immediately the next morning but was unable to get an appointment until two days later, two very, very long days later. The emotions that flooded my mind and body were almost unbearable and it took every fiber of my being to remain sane. All of this happened very recently. I discovered the email on January ...

As I am writing this, I can hear my oldest son playing music let me just say a little loud. Before my recent diagnosis of Cancer, I would have popped up ran into the room and insisited it be turn down. Afterwards I would retreat back to whatever I was doing, replaying the obvious disrespectful scene over and over again in my head. During this time my body would contract and help the child or spouse who made the next "mistake". Mistake being only my perception. I sit here now take a deep breath and realize that it does bother me a little but not so much I need to put out the negative energy I previously ...

This is day one, a new beginning, a new moment. I sit here writing this on my bed right before I get ready for work. I teach dance, fitness, Yoga and so the last thing I expected was to have a diagnosis of Cancer two and a half weeks ago. But what is just is and so after the initial shock and then anger to acceptance, I have decided to share this journey and the many lessons it has and knowingly will teach me. The first lesson is How to not know. Yes, Not Know or should I say have the need to Know. The unknown seems to be a scary place and so many of us including myself find our comfort in knowing ...