Mary J Blige Talks Amy Winehouse Death In Ebony: ‘It Could Have Been Me’

Mary J Blige poses in Leopard on the vibrant cover of Ebony Magazine’s October 2011 Issue. Inside, she sets the record straight on past rumors, demons and finding her soul mate, as well as her thoughts on the passing of soul singer Amy Winehouse. Years ago, Mary J Blige had a terrible drinking problem that she says would have eventually killed her. Via Ebony

When I got the text about Amy, I was lying down on the bed,’’ says Blige. “I got up and read the message about her death and just lay back down again. I kept getting up and laying back down for some reason. I’d always wanted to work with Amy, so I just couldn’t believe it really. And then it hit me—that could have been me. That really could have been me!

A few months ago, during an episode of VH1?s ‘Behind The Music’, Mary J Blige revealed that it was her husband Kendu who stepped in before it was too late and helped her  turn her life around:

“The problem had snowballed into this thing that was bigger than me. It was bigger than me. And it was definitely going to kill me. So I was like this is it and let’s go. And I remember sitting on my bed. I swear, I don’t know what death feels like, but I felt like my spirit was trying to leave my body. And I was crying, and I was going please God, no no, not now, I don’t want this. I prayed, like I remember saying a prayer I said God, send me someone to help me.”

The best thing that you can do to me [is] to challenge me to challenge myself. When I stopped drinking, it was will power. It was prayer. It was really hard. But I cared so much about [Kendu], I didn’t wanna just be this alcoholic burden on him. He doesn’t deserve for me to just be some you know, slum bucket alcoholic. And so, I took responsibility and I, cleaned up as much as I could. But it was hard.

If only someone could have stepped in and helped Amy Winehouse before it was too late

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