OK I know what you may be thinking, but no, I did not have sex with the other man that night! He was very sweet and very comforting. We watched tv, and at one point, he laid his head on my lap and I was freaking out..lol I began massaging his neck and arms since he just happened to be right there. We were like that for a good while when all of a sudden he got up. He headed towards the bathroom, and I took that as a hint that maybe it was time for me to go home. I got up to get ready to leave and he came out of the bathroom smelling like mouthwash. I knew right then and there that he was going to try to kiss me. And he pulled me close and hugged me, then looked me in the eyes and began kissing me. I was shaking like crazy! This was my dream come true, or the beginnings of it anyway!

He then asked me, "what would you say if I asked you to sleep with me in my bed tonight?". I said, "I would say yes". Then he said, "what would you say if I said I wanted to make love with you?". I said, "I would say no because we shouldn't be doing that". With that he took my hand and we went to bed. We did fool around a bit, but mostly he held me in his arms and we talked alot. I felt so special and so cared for. Well, that was the start of this journey with this amazing man. That happened at the end of April 2006. There's so much more that has developed since then, but you should know, through it all, he has continued to remind me that we are friends, and that he is not ready for a committment and doesn't know if he ever will be. Hence my ongoing dilemma.

TO BE CONTINUED.....